School Starts Next Week

And frankly, it's not a moment too soon. I am looking forward to getting back into the swing of things. Ben has had a really good day today, except for a huge tantrum during the second half of mass when I ran out of lollypops and the nursery was closed so we actually had Ben in the church with us. There is no cry room. But Rob took him out, and the girls and I sat in for the rest of mass. Poor Rob, he said Ben was as upset as he's ever seen him. But aside from that, I had most of the afternoon alone with him, and he seems to be connecting better, making good eye contact, and laughing with me when we sang songs and played play dough together. I got some new enzymes in the mail yesterday, and I'm going to get really serious about them now. I hope that I can eventually take him off his Gluten free diet with the help of the enzymes, if I start to see improvement. I'm also starting a new brand of vitamins, just in time for the start of school. Rob and I seem to go back and forth with regard to optimism about the prospect of Ben's improvement. Some days, I feel yes, he'll eventually learn all the things he's supposed to and will be able to take care of himself as an adult, and other days, I'm just not so sure. I think he'll probably have to be in a special education classroom for at least the first few years of elementary school. I always wonder if he could be making more improvements if I'd just push myself a little more to create learning experiences for him. That's just one of the things thats always on my mind. Sometimes being a mom is hard.