New Year New Me Same Ben

I find the whole BLOG thing a bit perplexing. I really want to keep you up to date. I want to wax poetic on the progress Ben has been making. And he has, but he hasn't. There are a lot of good things going on with Ben, and a lot that has stayed the same or worsened. I find it difficult to write about him honestly and not worry about who might suddenly become concerned about us (we're okay), or who will have a bad day after reading my latest post. I feel that I don't have anything positive to share with the internet world. I wish I was one of those blogs that could chronicle my son's slow but sure recovery from autism. But it's not happening. That was my intent when I first started this blog over FOUR years ago, back when blogs were young and everyone on the block didn't have one. Instead, I've decided to write for myself for now. I'm going to start a memoir. I'm NOT promising anything, so don't ask to read it anytime soon. I've decided that if I want to be truly honest about my feelings, my worries, and my frustrations, I'm going to have to go solo for a while. I have a lot of things I want to say and I'll let you know when I'm done. Adios for now, muchachos.